Six secrets

I was "tagged" by my friend Dianne a long time ago and am just now getting around to doing it. (Sorry Dianne, been busy.) I am suppose to tell 6 secrets about myself. I think this is a great tag since this blog is meant to be a family and personal journal, so here you go...

1) I don't like people touching my face. But I love it when people play with my hair. Weird and quirky, I know.
2)My name is Satina but I have a couple relatives who always call me "Tina" I hate the name "Tina" and will correct anyone for using it. But because my name is so unique I have been called many things; Satrina, Sanita, Santina, Serina, Cetina, Katrina, Selina, etc. I am fine with people messing up my name and I kindly correct them, but I hate the name "Tina"!
3)I have a nose like a dog! I am very sensitive to smells and if there is an unpleasant smell I get so bothered by it. I have a hard time sleeping with anything other than my own pillowcase because it has my smell. I also have chronic nose bleeds and have had my nose cauterized 22 times!
4)In 1995 I was a semi-finalist in the Miss North Dakota Teen USA pageant. It was my only pageant I ever did and was an interesting experience but very uncomfortable for me. I had an even lower self-esteem back then and was totally out of place. But it was an experience that helped shape me. I did gain more confidence and was on several committees trying to make a difference in the community. I was even the chairman of the Youth Advisory Committee for the Police Youth Bureau. I was so involved that in 1997 I went to Kansas City to be the youth member of a team to represent my hometown for the "All American City" competition. We actually won the honor that year!
5) I am very organized. My brain doesn't function properly in clutter, I literally have a shorter attention span and a shorter temper if my house is a mess. I have to have order, its an illness. I have learned to let go over the years. Yes, I use to be much "worse"! And I have learned that for the first year after having a baby I will have to set my standard to 60-70% of what I normally need it to be, because if I strive for the order and cleanliness that I normally enjoy I will never achieve it and just be stressed out over it. People always compliment my clean house and organization, what they don't realize is that it is a sickness!
6)I have suffered from depression. Both post partum depression and chemical depression. I was on medication for 8 years when I decided I needed to get off of them. I felt an urgency to get off meds and felt it was something I had to do...its hard to explain. So I have been successfully off any anti-depressants for 4 1/2 years now! And during those 4 1/2 years I have gone through a miscarriage, high-risk pregnancy ending in an emergency Cesarean section, our newborn in the NICU for 2 weeks, post partum depression, my biological father's family finding me and my mother and that side of the family's response to that (long story!), another high risk pregnancy with more bed rest, and hardest of all was losing my brother to a long battle with leukemia. I have had my melt downs and have soaked my pillow with tears during these times, but after a good cry I was able to put myself back together and be a mom and wife again WITHOUT any pills to help me feel whole. My secret? No secret really, my faith has played a huge part in my healing and I also have taken up running. Running is my new anti-depressant. How cool is that?! And with God ANYTHING truly is possible!

So there you go. Now you all know more about me, hope I didn't ruin any delusions!

I tag anyone who wants to play along! Leave a comment or e-mail me telling me that you did it so I can read them!!!